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- [NO SPOILERS] Friends Forever - Art by Leopold
- [NO SPOILERS]Chloe Skywalker and Max-Ine Kenobi
- [NO SPOILERS] Little pieces of time by Timuri
- [NO SPOILERS] Hanging Out. - Fanart by AbandonedWare.
- [NO SPOILERS] “Until We Meet Again” by me
- [NO SPOILERS] Took these shots using the freecam mod
- [ALL] Rachel Amber, The Broken Angel Who Demonized Herself
- [NO SPOILERS] “Do not pretend to care”...
- [NO SPOILERS][Repost] You okay there, kid? (IN SHOCKING 3D!) (by me)
- [NO SPOILERS] Fucking KNEW I wasn't crazy that IS a Chris Fehn poster in Chloes room
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[NO SPOILERS] Friends Forever - Art by Leopold Posted: 17 Jan 2021 05:23 AM PST
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[NO SPOILERS]Chloe Skywalker and Max-Ine Kenobi Posted: 17 Jan 2021 02:30 AM PST
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[NO SPOILERS] Little pieces of time by Timuri Posted: 16 Jan 2021 07:01 PM PST
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[NO SPOILERS] Hanging Out. - Fanart by AbandonedWare. Posted: 17 Jan 2021 10:26 AM PST
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[NO SPOILERS] “Until We Meet Again” by me Posted: 17 Jan 2021 01:21 AM PST
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[NO SPOILERS] Took these shots using the freecam mod Posted: 16 Jan 2021 11:41 PM PST
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[ALL] Rachel Amber, The Broken Angel Who Demonized Herself Posted: 17 Jan 2021 06:41 AM PST Fair warning, please bear with this probably incredibly longass (I'm not kidding it's rlly long) analysis of one of the fandom's most controversial disliked characters, Rachel Amber. This is just my attempt to analyze her character based on observation from BtS to LiS so by no means do you have to accept them. Feel free to leave some constructive feedback if you disagree with anything. Discussions are obviously very welcomed :D In LiS, when we asked about Rachel around campus, most of them had nothing but compliments and praises for the missing girl. She was essentially an honorary Vortex Club member who socialised with the snobs, yet she also hung out with the skater stoners and was friendly with those at the bottom of the social hierarchy. Then we see those graffiti around where it hints at Rachel's promiscuity, debts and conflicts with other people. That's the first sign we see that Rachel Amber isn't as perfect as everyone was making her out to be. Afterwards we discover that Rachel was a stoner herself and into whatever drugs there were, partied harder than anyone else, promiscuous, entered a relationship with local drug dealer Frank Bowers while having a secret relationship with Psycho teacher Mark Jefferson— all while maintaining a 4.0 GPA in her studies and being considered perfect and adored by practically everyone in her school. The girl's incredible, obviously, or maybe scary for someone to be so spread out in everything. Rachel was a straight A student with a 4.0 GPA, an administrative assistant to the Principal, beloved by students and faculty alike, literal goddess beauty, had ambitions to be a model and study international law, daughter of the DA and was the closest to perfection anyone would ever be— so what went wrong? What made her romanticise the idea of running away from a town where everyone loves and adores her? Because of the above. Yes, it may sound whiny and dramatic to feel tired of being loved and being the center of attention all the time, but there's no point to it if it's not you who they adore, but the person you're pretending to be— especially when you have to do so much just to maintain the lie. Throughout LiS and BtS, Rachel's ability to get along with everyone was always mentioned. At face value she was akin to a social butterfly. She hung out with stoners regardless of their social status (skaters or the vortex club), was friendly with anyone regardless of their place in the social hierarchy (eg; Daniel/Evan/Steph/Drew/Nathan) or even to strangers others usually ignored (Samuel/Homeless lady). Like Evan said, Her friends were her friends. She wasn't one to let peer pressure affect her relationships so she wasn't afraid to make all those acquaintances. However, for those who knew her closely (Chloe and Jefferson), she was referred to as a chameleon, someone who blended in with everyone and everywhere seamlessly. This was an important detail regarding who Rachel was and her intimacy with others. To be able to make that comparison, they would've needed to know who the person Rachel actually was underneath the masks she'd created over the years. Chloe was the first to truly see and accept her for who she was. Jefferson was the one who exploited her for it. For most, being a social chameleon would count as a beneficial social skill if they're subtle. So long as the person doesn't lose themselves in the process and is able to separate their personas from their true self, it remains a skill and will be used as such. The problem with Rachel was that it transcended beyond a skill. A social chameleon was what she became, and that led to losing her own sense of identity, to becoming a stranger in her own body. We see her confiding to Chloe about this feeling in Brave New World: ("Do you think there's a point when you've been acting so much that you don't even have your own personality anymore? You're just whatever you think other people want you to be?") —to which Chloe tells her she does have a personality because she assumed Rachel was talking about herself. But Rachel apparently wasn't and clarifies she was talking about her father. She then elaborates on how her father doesn't really exist, that how he was in the principal's office was a mere performance and then the actual truth— that she's afraid she'll end up like him. No matter how you interpret that scene, the conclusion is that one of Rachel's fears was becoming like James— someone who's been so wrapped up in all the lies and manipulation that he no longer seemed recognisable to even his own daughter. At that point her defence mechanism of deflection and avoidance came into play after Chloe got a little too close to home. We first see this on the train scene when they play Two Truths and a Lie. Rachel gave factual statements as opposed to Chloe who gave facts that elaborated into her personal life. At one point Chloe can ask how Rachel knew about having a distal radius fracture and It's a very minor detail, but when she explains that it's because she broke her wrist when she was 10, she says it extremely fast. When Chloe is about to press for more info about something personal no matter what option you choose, Rachel dismissively turns around the conversation from herself back to Chloe again. The next time we see her deflecting is right after witnessing her father cheating. When Chloe asks about her, Rachel deflects and guilt trips her into somehow thinking she's at fault for failing to get them wasted and then proceeds to drown her sorrows into alcohol instead of opening up. Afterwards when they find the junkyard, Rachel chooses to isolate herself from Chloe and withdraws to the corner, getting irritated if Chloe chooses to invade her space. When Chloe confronts her about her sudden moodiness, Rachel yet again deflects and shifts the attention to Chloe by essentially telling her she's self-centred. This scene was classic Deflection 101 brought by Rachel's defence mechanism to cope with her father's betrayal. Rachel uses deflection and avoidance as a defence mechanism, a habit which stems from the dynamics of the Amber family. When you have a Politician as a father whose life work is to manipulate and lie, and a Stepford Wife as a mother who wilfully acts like a servant to her husband out of sacrifice and duty— an environment of deceit and suppression of one's feelings will be fostered. This is what shapes Rachel to be distrusting and unhealthily altruistic as we see in BtS. And so Rachel's deflection is driven by 2 things: mistrust (James) and her unhealthy altruism (Rose). As a district attorney, James unfortunately carried his work persona into his personal life and can be presumed to lie to even his own family on a daily basis to the point that Rachel can tell when he's lying: ("When your Dad is the District Attorney, I guess lying is...something you're used to.") (Why can't you just tell me the fucking truth?! Stop lying! Stop being a politician for one fucking minute! Can't you just be my Dad?") What that tells us is that Rachel's actually used to being lied at and treated with cynicism, so naturally that would make her guarded around others. Not to mention since James often exercised his professional prerogative (just recall how he spoke to Chloe and her comment about his micro-aggressions towards his own family), it's most likely that he was also cynical towards people in general and carried that mindset forward at Rachel as well. As for Rose, you have to really observe how she carried herself and her choice of words. A lot of people pointed out how robotic she sounded and blamed it on bad voice acting, but I think that was actually intentional. She was too mannered, too submissive and too robotic as a person. It's not exactly a bad thing, but a lot of her personality seemed to be too... political for the sake of her husband's political career. It was altruistic in the way that she sacrificed her own needs for her husband's and was unfailingly supportive (eg; preparing dinner all by herself, respectfully asking James for his drink, even going so far as to excuse James for kissing Sera like wtf). Point is, Rose was the stereotypical political wife whose job was to shut up, look good and smile for her husband while he does the talking. At one point in the dinner scene when they start fighting, James even dared to say 'Rose, let me handle this' as if Rose's voice was irrelevant and unimportant to the table (when he literally just got exposed for cheating lmao). So what happens when your family environment consists of a father who actively lies and uses manipulation to twist facts, expects you to be compliant in exchange for rewards (birthday money), has the ability to read people, and a mother who does too much for someone who does the barest minimum for the family and represses herself for the sake of others? An environment of deceit and suppression will be fostered, and you develop all of their qualities, for better or worse. That's difficult to change when your own family dynamics molded you to be that way and then reward you for it. If you recall, Rachel's mannerisms changed completely when in front of her family and if Chloe complained about having to play the goody two shoes formal well-behaved humorless girl, Rachel would say: 'try doing it your whole life'. So not only was she playing different roles in school but evidently at home as well. But It's not as if the Amber family was aware of the toxic environment they'd created. That's just what their normal was: to be well-mannered, formal, professional, mature and well-articulated. This is where Rachel's social chameleon tendencies develops. Social chameleons usually have reasons for blending in when it comes to personal relationships:
Considering how Rachel was extremely popular, active in all sorts of school activities and enjoyed the attention of being the star, no. 2 is out. She confessed to wanting to stop being a social chameleon and didn't seem to care much about Victoria's dislike of her + she also did it to her family so no. 1 is out as well, which leaves us to no. 3— doing it for the comfort of others. In other words, because she gave too much shit about other people all the time. What further supports the point of Rachel's unhealthy altruism is what she says to Chloe at the junkyard— ("Maybe you should try giving a shit about other people for once.") —which essentially tells us that she's been doing exactly that to be able to lecture Chloe into following her own perspective. Another example would be what she tells Chloe during their therapy session: "—Because she was tired of having to give so many fucks all the time." One thing however that all extreme social chameleons share is the fact that they loathe themselves, or at the very least— dislike who they are. Why else would they go all the trouble of creating different personas for everyone to the point of forgetting their own, if they actually liked themselves? One of the many things that Chloe and Rachel shared in common was their self-awareness in how undeniably shitty they can be, and that they hated who they were. Whereas Chloe embraced that whole part of her down her self destructive road, Rachel tried to cover hers up by playing other roles for people. Both girls played their sides to the ends of the spectrum; Chloe being selfish (causing problems for everyone in general unnecessarily) and Rachel being selfless (posing no problem for anyone in general even if there was a problem). They had no healthy balance and their unhealthy mindset ultimately drove them down a self destructive path. Rachel knew she was selfish by nature, and that she'd take it out on Chloe in Ep 1. That's why instead of talking about what was wrong, she chose to drown herself to alcohol and distance herself from Chloe. When Chloe confronts her about it, she either tells her that not everything revolves around her or that she should try giving a shit about people for once. In other words, 'Other people have bigger problems than you so shut up and don't make it worse for them.' That was Rachel's mentality and in that moment of poor lapse in judgment, she applied that logic to Chloe expecting her to think the way she does— to put others before yourself. With Rachel, she always had her walls up and couldn't help it even if she wanted to because it's practically second nature to have her guard up. It's only in her lowest vulnerable moments is when she finally let her walls down because that's when she's too tired to keep them up. Luckily (or unluckily) for Rachel, she recognized her problem. The only thing is that she didn't know how to solve them. She confided to Chloe about feeling like she doesn't exist, but then backtracked and clarified she was talking about her dad instead when Chloe got too close to home. Even IF she was genuinely talking about her father, it doesn't erase the fact that she believed there was a possibility she was going to become like him— because she already saw the signs and made the comparison between them. Remember her infamous outbursts in Awake? Unlike Chloe, she's the type who keeps everything bottled in until it's too much. Seeing her father kissing another woman was the breaking point and that's why she reacted badly. And then when she kicked that bin, that was equivalent to Chloe smashing up the junkyard. And then that scream. That scream was the result of years bottling her pent up frustration, stress, anger at everyone including herself. Because she did everything to make her family proud, to please everyone to the point that she felt so empty and hollow, only to realize that it was all for nothing because her father was destroying her family. It wasn't just a betrayal from her father but a betrayal to herself. And then there's Chloe Price. The girl who is the total opposite of her, yet who she can somehow still connect with at the same time. While she cared too much about what others thought, Chloe gave absolutely no fucks. That was her most attractive and admirable quality for Rachel. So what does she do? She latches onto Chloe to do exactly what she knows best. Become the ideal version of whoever wants her to be. In other words, the Rachel Amber who would finally give no fucks. Rachel was the closest to her truest self when she was around Chloe. Just as she brought life and hope back into the girl's life, so did Chloe for her. Chloe broke the walls she put up, and she'd seen her vulnerable enough times to let her mask slip. Chloe saw her at her lowest, ugliest self even when she wasn't doing her usual thing of keeping everyone around her happy, yet she didn't mock or leave her for it. For the first time, she was selfish, and still Chloe came back. That was a BIG reason to trust each other for the both of them. And that's ultimately what bonded them for so long— the fact that they could be the shittiest people on earth, yet still see the best in each other even if they only see the worst in themselves. Chloe was the first one to see through her social chameleon act because she slipped, and she continued to let her unmask who she was because that night Rachel just didn't care enough to hold up the act any longer. This detail of Rachel's chameleon act slipping only when something was wrong is a vital part in understanding the context around her. The first time was when she witnessed her whole world crash, the second was when she realized she was becoming like James, and the third was when she discovered what a monster James was. The fourth— when she asked that trucker for a drive out and didn't bother to be her usual social chameleon self. We may never know what happened, but something wrong was going on in Rachel's life that she didn't want Chloe to be a part of— because why would she put the girl who stuck by her during her darkest hours through her bullshit again? But at the end of the day, that wasn't enough. Chloe wasn't enough. And that's understandable because a teenager truly can't and shouldn't have to be responsible for someone else's happiness. No matter what choice Chloe makes at the end of BtS, the truth inevitably gets out and leads to Rachel having a fall out with her parents. When that happened, she lost a big pillar of her support system which only leaves her with Chloe who's another emotionally damaged teen that's on the road to self-destruction. Chloe can't help others without helping herself first. But still, who else is there to make them feel a little less shitty except each other? After her fall out with her parents and her father in particular, she seemed to have developed a taste for men twice her age: Frank Bowers (32) and Mark Jefferson (38). Whatever the reason her relationship with Frank was, she still wrote him those letters and seemed to have cared for him to some extent. Not only was he the source for drugs for her very much needed escape, but he was also the man who helped save her life in one of her most vulnerable moments, and a possible lead to find Sera. It's not that surprising she'd seek comfort and safety in his arms when he already proved himself once. But clearly it wasn't serious because she was fooling around with Jefferson at the same time (and Frank knew they wouldn't have lasted anyway). Now, Jefferson. The devs confirmed that Rachel was in love with Jefferson and honestly, that's the least surprising thing ever considering how he basically had the female population of Blackwell head over heels for him. Even Rachel wasn't immune to that psychopath's charm. He was a well reputable photographer, had the connections to propel her modeling career, was attractive and mysterious and apparently a damaged soul. He was the perfect one way ticket out of Arcadia Bay. He was her photographer and she was his muse. He was basically the perfect solution to her problems. The girl clearly had deep rooted daddy issues and was ashamed of it herself since she couldn't even share her secret relationship to the one person she trusted the most despite sharing her other relationships with her (except Frank). This is where the drugs and partying come in. They're a way for her to escape the bullshit in her life for a few hours. Chloe was what made her feel real, but the drugs and partying was what made her forget— forget that her biological mother chose drugs and money over her (twice), forget that her own father was so despicable that he was planning to overdose Sera (this is what Chloe said in the silent dialogue), forget that her biological mother may just be dead somewhere because of James, forget that her own family was a lie, forget all the expectations placed upon her, forget that she herself was a lie, forget that she was so insecure that she had to seek warmth and safety in the arms of men twice her age, forget the guilt of knowing the girl who would die for her was still not enough, forget that at the end of the day all her problems is caused by her own mind and that her own fears had come to reality. And she hated herself for that. But still, Rachel wasn't a total junkie or outwardly self destructive to the point that she abandoned her studies like Chloe did. She didn't let the drugs and partying dictate her life, hence the 4.0 GPA. After all, she still had a reputation to maintain. She was still the DA's daughter, and getting into college was still a way to get out of Arcadia Bay. BUT SEE, that was exactly Rachel's problem. She could never choose which to be; The Problematic Junkie of a Disappointment (Sera), or the Golden Child (James & Rose) everyone expected her to be. She wanted to be as free as Chloe, but she also didn't want to be a disappointment. She was tired of everything but couldn't allow herself to fall because it was her nature to demand the best of herself for others as long as she could do it. But what happens when it's your very own nature you're going against? It gets really complicated. So instead of choosing, she doesn't and becomes both. That was ultimately the worst decision she ever made. Make no mistake, Rachel was an absolute idiot for being so indecisive. She could have easily solved her problems if she just finally gave no shit and did whatever she wanted to. But that's the problem with people who're labeled as perfect growing up. They eventually believe it and demand perfection of themselves. They care too much about everything because if they have the ability to be perfect, then why would you choose not to be? When someone is seen to be perfect, disappointment is 10x worse. Even Chloe was guilty of idealizing Rachel to be this perfect girl and was disappointed when she realized Rachel was just like everyone else who puts in hard work—("Rachel's always made being an A student seem so easy. Almost sad to see all this... effort."), but it's Chloe accepting Rachel for who she was despite no longer being the perfect girl she believed her to be that mattered. With being seen as perfect usually comes with the assumption that your whole life is. Just as everyone invalidated her problems because she's Little Miss Perfect with the perfect grades and the seemingly perfect family, so did she. 'Cause hey, what does she have to be mad about when she's a rich white girl who's been given everything she's ever wanted, right? (James basically said that). At that point the only problem Rachel had was that she was acting as the perfect daughter and perfect friend and perfect student at the expense of her own happiness, and then throw in the sudden slap in the face that it was all for nothing because her father was destroying the family she'd tried so hard to do proud. But then again even if that wasn't enough reason to spiral, it really would mess you up if your own father told you that your biological mother chose money and drugs over you, that everything you've done so far was all for a lie and worst of all, that your own father was going to kill your biological mother and there's nothing you can do to change that. I mean really, I'm not a therapist or anything but I wouldn't be surprised if Rachel's mental health was suffering by that point. I mean get this: she abused drugs and partied harder than anyone else and got wasted even though she knew they were wrong (Sera would've been a painful reminder), slept around with older men who undoubtedly took advantage and controlled her, continued to act like the perfect student and pretended to be someone she's not just to keep everyone happy even though it was causing her to question her own existence— it's almost as if she was punishing herself for continuing down that path. Ultimately what Rachel was running away from was who she had become in Arcadia Bay. Once she'd be out, she wouldn't be Little Miss Perfect anymore. She wouldn't be the DA's daughter. She wouldn't have to keep lying. She would be able to start over. She would just be Rachel Amber, the nobody. She cared too much in contrast to Chloe's 'I don't give a shit' attitude, and that's why she still managed to maintain her perfect image even when she was already so broken. Whereas Chloe's first instinct was to blame others, Rachel's was to blame herself. Both never had a healthy balance when it came to accepting responsibility and that's what connected them so well together. Call it selflessness or selfishness or stupidity or melodrama, but at the end of the day Rachel tried to keep everyone around her happy, just like Max tried to do with her powers except Rachel used lies to do it. She was greedy and selfish, no disagreement to that, but she also tried to be selfless for most of her life. She was her own enemy and she demonized herself for it. And that got her murdered, thrown and buried away like the used rag doll she treated herself to be. She was Chloe's angel and Chloe was hers, but she was also her own demon. And there's only so much two broken angels can do against a demon. TL;DR: Idealizing her to be the Perfect Girl was what made her want to run away. Her family was what broke her. Desperation for escape was what killed her. Her family just really suck. Now, I'm not trying to justify Rachel's actions but merely rationalizing her character. I acknowledge that she was capable of being a shitty person at times, but just as Chloe had her issues, so did she, and so I choose to see them both for what they tried to be. Good hearted people just trying to make their shitty life a little easier. At the end of the day, Rachel Amber was a deeply flawed, insecure and emotionally damaged girl that pretended like nothing was wrong to forget about her troubles for a little, and was just dealt a bad hand in life. Literally. After writing all of this, I realize that holy shit this girl was fucking complicated and a single post doesn't do her justice nor explains her character properly enough. I thought it'd be simple enough to word it out, but then again, someone who was basically a junkie yet still managed to maintain her perfect reputation amongst her peers and the faculty is bound to be this complexed. Also as you can see I got very lazy at the middle of the elaborations and repetition has probably made this unnecessarily long but thank you for reading and finishing this overall confusing and messy essay. [link] [comments] | ||
[NO SPOILERS] “Do not pretend to care”... Posted: 16 Jan 2021 02:30 PM PST
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[NO SPOILERS][Repost] You okay there, kid? (IN SHOCKING 3D!) (by me) Posted: 17 Jan 2021 03:17 AM PST
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[NO SPOILERS] Fucking KNEW I wasn't crazy that IS a Chris Fehn poster in Chloes room Posted: 16 Jan 2021 06:49 PM PST
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[ALL] Life is Strange 1 poll (winners from the previous polls) Posted: 16 Jan 2021 10:19 PM PST | ||
[S1] How would you rank Life is Strange secondary characters? Posted: 16 Jan 2021 04:33 PM PST
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